i have not seen my dad lately. cause he has been coming home late. and when ever i see him we will not talk for a long time as i will be going to school or i will be going to sleep. i kinda miss last time...

anyway i kinda want them(parents) to know that i love someone and that he is a good person. i kinda agree that having a relationship is not a the greatest of ideas but hear me when i say i did not plan on it happening. it just happened. i mean love is a natural thing right? you can love at 23 20 19 18 years of age, its still love. nothing is different but the age! i love this guy and do not doubt me for knowing what is love. i am in love. i use to say i think, i may, but now i confidently say i am! he is a nice guy once you get to know him.

do not blame me or him if my results are not the best or up to expectations. im trying i study. i know i have to study. i will do my best just cause my best is my best do not expect more. i want to go to the library every saturday on my own to study but im pretty sure you will not agree to it.

actually to tell you the truth i do not always go out with friends i do go out with him. i want to spent a small amount of time with him every week but of cause not more then time spent with my family. i want him to meet you to know my family. i want him to fetch me home without worrying that you will catch us. i want so much but its not about friends it more about him.

understand me... put me into the shoes of yourselves when you were in love. i cant come out of this relationship so easily cause im stuck. but stuck in a good way.

I WAS ATTACHED TO HIM SINCE SEC 5 AND I DID WELL FOR MY O LEVELS

IM SORRY TO SAY THIS BUT IF I EVER BREAK UP WITH HIM BECAUSE YOU DO NOT AGREE TO OUR RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE OF AGE I DO NOT KNOW IF I WILL BE OK AFTER THAT. I DO NOT THINK I CAN 'LIVE MY LIFE' ALWAYS WONDERING WHAT IF.i do not want to be wondering what if.

i can safely say i will not put him before my famliy and studies. but please understand i really do love him.

before you start judging me re-read the entry... and really TRY to understand.

wRitteN wiTh tHe ouNce Of fReeDom i hAve leFt
Friday, January 12, 2007

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