do i even know what is stress? my life seems so carefree. its not suppose to be but im such an undisciplined (is there such a word?) student. anyway back to stress part how do you deal with it. you know i think for me i cry. you know sometimes you just feel like crying? u dont? ok fine im the only one then. if you are thinking im some emo/crazy person... IM NOT. people have different ways to relief stress, i cry!

reasons of why i am stress:
1. i have up coming exams
2. i have to study but not much time *slaps self* cause never study consistenlly (spelling error)
3. i have to do well. unlike secondary school, we have to do well for every exam as everything is accumulated.
4. i have to do well to prove myself, or rather to prove that i can do well in my studies and maintain a relationship.
5. stupid UNCOMPLETED projects
6. nothing to cheer me up. even chocolate does not seem to be of help.

rules set my me:
1. not to call him often, have to bring myself not to get addicted too to you (do not think this will work)
2. study everyday (do not think this is gona work, AS WELL)
3. do not go on Internet for nonsense stuff

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hate what im going through now.

my life!!!

does not suck i just make it seem that way. "you always look at the negative way" as he always says. (not the exact words lah) i know im a freaking pesimis? (comfort wrong spelling) why do i not listen to him? he is always telling me to not think of the bad points and just look at what i am capable of and work on that. why dont i listen?

thank you baby for talking to me, telling me the right things. helping me through times when i feel at my lowest. i am sad now, reason: i think i take words from you for granted. same goes to my parents. the problem with me is i do not listen. even if i do it come out the other ear.

i get so bothered by the fact... sorry but i cant continue. i love writing down my thoughts. it makes me feel loads better and makes me think properly but i prefer to not to post personal stuff... which i was about to do.

to anyone who is reading... do not let small stuff make you lose confidence and do NOT turn a deaf ear when someone is telling you something that is worth hearing. even if you find it super boring at that point of time just store it in that tiny brain of yours somewhere(come on it will not take up that much of space). it might come in handy eventually.

i would seem so perfect if i slit my wrist now right?
WRONG

cause im not EMO!!!

stop thinking that i am!

wRitteN wiTh tHe ouNce Of fReeDom i hAve leFt
Saturday, January 27, 2007

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