grhhhh!!! my parents think that i am such a loose person that i if they let me go out i will be gone. like omg lah... im not that loose ok. i want to live my own life not yours they always last time i never do this i never do that... whatever lah huh thats your life not mine. is like you are trying to tell me you want me to be you lah. HEY we all know that is impossiable! you lived a life like 30 years ago how you gona compare with times now.

you do not know what you are doing to me. i am not doing this to myself! if one day i do not come home i dont think you have to take long before you realise the reason. you can live your life the way you did does not mean i can live your life I AM NOT YOU!!!

gees!

why dont you just let me go out? then at least you will know where i am. why cant i just open up to you? you all scared to let me go cos you thing i will not come back is it? i think that is what papa thinks lah he is like so scared that i treat my friends more important! for the last time i do not ok! my family is first!

i always say that i do not mind not going out so often so long as i have a family i can talk to. but as time goes by i do not feel like i can talk much to anyone. i want to be able to tell you that i did badly in my papers without you getting so upset. i want you to be at least pround of me for one thing. is like in your eyes i have not acomplished anything. i want to be be not scared.

THANKS pa for letting me go out.

all i want is to have you as my so called bestfriends, boyfriend... because for me when you look for bestfriends or boyfriends you are looking for someone who understand you who you talk about anything. thats what i want.

Labels: i love you ~my family~

wRitteN wiTh tHe ouNce Of fReeDom i hAve leFt
Saturday, March 03, 2007

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