just finish watching what a girl wants. message of the show "be yourself" that is just what i will do.

this is my blog yea? i do not like to write too personal stuff here but it is my only soure of freedom so here goes nothing.

ever since that day my father has not been the same. he has been taking things out on me.if these things were to happen before that day, he would not have made noise about. so i just could not take it anymore and yes i cried today. (i have to be stronger) the way he talks to me is as if he does not want to anymore. in his eyes i have NEVER done anything right! our relationship is becoming worst then before. he says i'm hopeless, useless. if i am all that just abandom me lah. either way i will never do anything to satisfy you what.

*shakes head* he says i take pity on myself. i taught so too. well last time i did i think that my parents did not love me. hey can you blame a young girl for being foolish? but this time round i know i am definitely not taking pity on myself.

he is really stubborn. YES! he does not listen!

you know i seriously am starting to not be bored by it. if this is the way its gona be so be it. i try to talk to him in the way it used to be. but... i will not throw raise my voice at him anymore if he want to schold me go ahead be if i am not in the wrong i myself am well aware of it. i do not need to prove it to anyone.

one thing though i do not want to do this to others. this refering to only noticing the bad points and never the good.

OYA and its my life i make my own choices.

there are stuff which i cant remember if i do i will write them down.

remembered:
i bet they do not know what i like and all that like what is really going on in my life.

love love

wRitteN wiTh tHe ouNce Of fReeDom i hAve leFt
Saturday, March 17, 2007

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