i hate to read but i love to write. go figure...


it is pretty obvious as to why i am blogging. I WANT THAT MACBOOK. poly student with $0 (i am not joking) how to afford a laptop? PLUS parents are so against the idea. (hey its just $2000 hehe =x) hmm... should have just gone to RP, then buying me a laptop would have been a must. ah well.

i have tired taking part in this contest before but i did not win anything. why else would i be back here. i was seriously not contemplating trying out again. but crazyhamster tag me asking me not to give up (youth.sg you guys wouldn't happen to be paying him to do that right? cause i do not know him personally) so anyway this time round i will not try that hard i will not read through my mail over 50 times to check if it is "perfect" (obviously it wasnt cause i did not win so whats the point eh? :) i will just write as i would normally do.

gosh i sound like a sour grape. opps... dont matter. i said i was not going to make it "perfect"

moving along to the topic on social issues. first of all when i read the topic i was thinking, wah sounds so political. i dont think my blog will make the cut. considering i am not a political person. *YAWN*... :0 see even the word bores me. hack i dont even think i know the meaning of politics. *ponders*

so being the person that i am i would interpret the topic as one which has to do with my social circles and the issues involving my social life? if social issues really has a political meaning behind it please stop laughing at me *blush*



have you heard of the show veronica mars? if i am not mistaken its about this girl who was in the "IN" group but after some turn of events she became an outcast. at least that is what i think cause i do not have cable so i am still at the first season. (yep life without cable... yawn!) whats the point of telling you this you might ask. well, after she was out casted she did not do anything to get back into that "popularity" circle. all she did was be herself, despite the bad remarks blah blah blah.

thats who i want to be. MYSELF!!!

lets be honest here, i bet a lot of you out there wants to be one of the popular ones. okay maybe not popular but at least one of those, which people wants to get to know. even when you tell yourself "man... i her that bit*h's attitude, she is like so all about herself" then the next day when you see her you are like "ohhh hiiii, yesterday was great lets do it some other time." arghhh *disgusted tone*

you might say"why not be on talking terms with the person? she is just a little proud..." ah HA! but when what you are really thinking about is "if i do not talk to her, there goes my social life"

i dont know about the people out there but that is how i see it. people go about life talking bad about someone they dont like but end up putting up this ACT. this ACT which i cant deny, have done.

why do we live life always in their shadows? i mean, not saying that all popular people are self obsesses, thick skin, big headed... human beings. (no offence to anyone out there i dont want to get beaten up) why cant we just leave out lifes wanting to be us?

erm i have know idea what are the questions for. like anyone would answer me.

so the question is what to be or not to be...no thats not it, to love or not to love? oh gosh i dont believe i really for got that famous phrase. to ____or not to ____. ooo ir-ri-ta-ting!!!

REAL question is why do we do it? pretend we like people that we actually dont?

i guess for some it would be becasue they forgive easily. but i am sure for others its cause they want that security of having friends. hey, honestly if your friends are just there to give you status i dont thing you should even bother having friends.

friends are who you turn to when in times of need, those that you trust and are happy with. not one where by... ooo i want to be at this party could you get me in?
i like your hair! you look so great with blonde hair... LIES LIES ALL LIES

if half the time spend idolising someone (not that it is a bad thing) is used to look at what your good points are and realising that you are just like them (human HA!)...

*bobbing my head to holler back girl*

~* weying has left the keyboard- dancing *~

i aint no holler back girl!!!

ok where was i, oyea... i bet that your confidence level will go up up up... thats why i have chosen to be my full total self at all times. HAHA>>> CRAZY HYPER SIAO i want to be confident. (please do not mistake that with an egoistic shit head) i do not want to be SO afraid of competetion. you noticed i did not say totally. siao ah, totally not afraid of competition you must be some kind of perfectionist. hack even perfectionist are afraid.

so everyone out there be yourself... cause YOU ROCK!!!

PS: this was not written to pin point anyone it was what i was feeling and had to write it down

second ps:

PICK ME TO WIN!!!

psst* i lied i read through it twice. hey big difference from 50 times O-tay.

wRitteN wiTh tHe ouNce Of fReeDom i hAve leFt
Tuesday, April 17, 2007

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