ok time for some serious life reflection....

i was about write about the following then i happen to talk to shirley and yee ling and qi about tomorrow. i am so happy to be seeing them. i love them!!! then after that went on to the blackboard foor my com skills, this is like the second time and i haven really figured out the whole thing yet haha! gees!!! the horrers of technology. so i kinda gave up will be back on that tomorrow.

as i was saying life reflection. i saw mr low on my way home today, then we kinda had a short conversation. then one thing lead to another and i ended up saying the most stupid thing that you can only imagine saying to your teacher "so nice... i also want to get married and life will just be so nice" at that point of time the words which was running through my head *What!!! smack self... why on earth did i say such a thing god i am dumb punch self!!!* seriously i am DUMB!

anyway so the reality is i was never the sort to seal my future at such a young age, i was never the sort that thought myself to commit at such an age. i really want to enjoy being able to have the freedom to the different people around me. BUT when i think of the reason as to why i am here, all commited to someone, i realise that the reason is the guy i am with.

people might be thinking that, ah this girl is still young she does not know what she is talkign about. well i agree that he is the first true love, but honeslty when i am with him i dun feel like i am a stupid young girl who does not know anything. when i am with him i know that i am not wasting my time commiting myself.to hell with what people say of first love, you dont know shit, kinda person.

let me just put it this way if you were me, i am 99.9% sure you will feel that this is not the wrong decision (commiting to this one guy)

this is the first time i have post stuff about my private life to the public, reason being, to who ever who reads, if you are in love with someone and your gut just tells you he is worth the commitment and if people are telling you that you are still young. to hell with those comments cause to me, if he is the one then you go off knowing that you did not let him go but if he is not the one then at least you found out yourself, from exprience not form someone telling you what to do.

the love is what keeps us going!!!

wRitteN wiTh tHe ouNce Of fReeDom i hAve leFt
Thursday, November 01, 2007

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